Alone, I stand, beside myself -
Simple in my complexity.
Understanding, I stay confused;
A living, breathing non-entity

Fishing for a cat in hell's chance,
To give in and take control.
Nomadically, I'll sit at home,
Lovingly, I'll hate some more.

Listening with my eyes,
And watching with my ears,
Take it all, but leave some there,
Let others see through blinding tears.

I'll remember to forget this time,
And tick it with a cross,
Then begin again at the end
And find myself at a loss.